Surrender

I'm currently reading a book, entitled Absolute Surrender, by Andrew Murray. He has a lot of depth of thought in each page, and so far I am loving it. Because of this book, it has me thinking and pondering about surrender. I titled this for this post, but i feel like I could start talking about other things as well, so bear with me if I do.

I find myself trying to jump and run before I can walk with regards to job searching. I want to rush and discover what the Lord's will is and then adjust to that immediately. I think He will bless me in this endeavor, but I'm not incredibly patient. The beautiful thing about living at home is that my living expenses have decreased dramatically. However, I do not want to remain at home for months on end because it is my ultimate desire to be fully independent. The next few months will be great to establish that platform, I just need to be patient and trust that He will provide. I'd prefer sooner rather than later... but we shall see.

Back to surrender... it takes a daily act for us to live in surrender. I want to satisfy and gratify my flesh on a daily, even hourly basis... whether its indulging in extra sleep or desiring to be idle, I have to pray daily for the full armor of God and His strength to aid me in my constant struggle to surrender to Him. Its funny how often I fail miserably, but there is a beautiful thing called grace, as He will raise me up on my feet to try again. And again.

Through time, I hope to be made holy by the Lord, so that I can be missional and love others sacrificially as He does so everyday. As a start, I'm trying to take full use of every opportunity given to me, and I know that He is ultimately sovereign over all.

This is a pretty random post, but that's okay since it is my blog. More to come later, perhaps.