In the last twenty-four hours or so reality has struck like a stray bolt of lightning... I'll be in SB real soon. 11 days from now. And last week I received a special issue of our campus newspaper, The Daily Nexus (which is a pretty cool name I think), the contents of which were pretty darn close to explicit. In the "Opinion" Colunms of the newspaper, the glorious "F" word is used a couple times, which in my "opinion" is a really crappy way to introduce people to your university.
After reading some of the articles, I literally almost started panicking. This of course did not happen cause we were on our way up to Disneyland, which afterall is the Happiest Place on Earth. So I have been able to stew over this the last two days and right now I'm ready to tackle someone. I know colleges all around function similar to this, anywhere can have a party scene. In my opinion people are just getting carried away and showing their foolishness. Maybe people that got into both Berkeley and SB chose Berkeley because if they'd be partying it would with "smarter" people.
In my mind, why would somebody get so drunk that they cannot remember what they did the night before? In one of the articles I read they said it would be great idea to get totally hammered and find a hot date for the night. After that one night, they recommend just to say hi to the hot date and to not think anything of committment... which seems so immoral and pointless (I'm being very euphemistic in depicting the article by the way). It's a frame of mind that I'll be in contact with everyday. I'm sure people will be tempting me with all sorts of things, but that is not how my parents raised me and, frankly, I don't want to be like that.
Taking the "High" road is what Christianity is all about, to me. It would be easier to go parties and be immoral than to be real with people and have a good time without any additves. I have never taken the easy way through anything... heck I've dated totally complicated girls when I surely could have had a more easy-going relationship.
So I have had a few revelations about this whole new playing field:
A) Obviously, I can't side-step the issue of partying. People have asked me if I could join them to party in the past, but it was never as realistic as it is now. I am going to be truly tested, and I am going to need my faith with me at all times to weather this test. I am not going to get totally hammered to gain acceptance from others. I have never acted like that, and I don't plan to.
B) This is a trivial situation. Really it is. There are so many more difficult things that lie in store for me in my future. If I can accomplish this whole not-partying thing, it will be such a boost in morale to overcome my next 'impossible' hurdle. I will be coming in contact where people have drank, smoked, and 'been around.' I havent come close to experiencing any of that on any level whatsoever, so to some people my morals will not be as important to them.
C) So, above all else I need to keep my head above water and to not sink into the blackhole of lust and temptation. I use the term blackhole because it is in my belief, once you join in, its beyond hard to get out. That is why so many people do what they do, they don't see a reason to stop now since they've done it before and now its expected of them. It's sad. And I have seen it with my own eyes, I wish it didn't have to be like this.
D) Prolly the most important point and the one I thought of before starting this blog tonight. My trump card of reality. Ready? Cause I'm not sure if I'm ready to write it down as thoughts are whirling in my head (Oh by the way I get my haircut this Wednesday. Haha). Okay before my dumb late-night humor ruins the moment. Jesus. Hope you didn't miss it, but Jesus is my trump card of trump cards. Our God-man beared all the sins of the world on his shoulders and he did not crack. He was tempted by Satan, and he did not crack. He listened to his Father's voice and surrendered himself to His will... and he did not crack.
Jesus is the key and I need him as my Rock, my Sword, and my Shield to keep my pure in my pursuits to succeed at SB. He was able to deal with so, so much through his faith in his heavenly father and if I can show just a smidgen of the same faith, I think I'll be happy with the end result.
Well I may be on to something, I dunno. I guess we'll find out won't we. Well another day is coming and going and I need to sleep sleep sleep. I'm getting up early tomorrow too, hopefully.
Hasta luego for now
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