Wow, I've been in the blogging frame of mine I guess these past couple days. There's been some stuff floating around in my noggin, for quite some time actually. I've had a sticky note posted on my desk since before Christmas to blog on this, so hopefully I can write it down so it sounds halfway decent.
Okay, so going to UCSB (or just about any college I imagine) I've been exposed to A LOT of stuff that I never had to even contemplate about before school started. It's very rare for my floor if there are no random girls running into guys' rooms, people drinking in the rooms, and recently I've been hearing people are moving on to hardcore 'psychedelics' to tickle their fancy. Wow.
Anyway, that's besides the point, the key thing that I'm interested in is the rationale behind these behaviors. Ready? Cause it's is not totally revolutionary... their rationale is the saying 'you only live once and that's it.' So in their view, we've got one shot at life and its up to us to make the most of it and experience as much as we can. One guy on my floor, who calls himself a 'fervent atheist' says when he's on the hardcore drugs, his entire body tingles from the 'top of [his] head, to the bottom of [his] feet' and he fears absolutely nothing, not even death. He says he's not afraid because once he dies that's it, and that would be good enough for him.
As I was sitting in the lounge listening to the above conversation while it was taking place (the atheist guy was conversing with another guy, both of whom were on something because they said the couches were 'breathing'), I was trying to visualize what it would feel like to feel this raw energy pulsing through me with no worries in the world. To be honest, my initial reaction was 'wow that would feel pretty good,' and at that point I nearly slapped myself for thinking that. Yeah, it probably provides a potent, yet temporary relief for life's struggles, but it certainly does nothing to wipe them away completely. At this point, I realized that God can provide that legitimately, and if I can learn to put things out of my worry and into his immensely comfortable hands, I won't feel as stressed and I won't see things 'breathing'--which would be pretty trippy I think.
This entire situation that is occurring not only on my environment, but just about everywhere else on the planet, is downright... sad, depressing, even a little pathetic. I know that sounds pretty harsh, and I feel that way only because I've been supremely fortunate enough to have grown up in an environment where I realize life has so much more to offer. I attribute this attitude to my family and my faith, and both have grown to become the cornerstones of my life.
So what I'm going to talk about is why I don't feel the need to go 'all out' throughout life, and I hope other Christians uphold this view too because it is quite important.
Okay, here goes.
For God-fearing, Bible-believing Christians, our life on earth is only temporary and if we can live by the tenets of the bible, by inviting Christ into our lives and accepting him as our savior who died for us so that we could live eternally, we will join Him in heaven. What a day that'll be eh? Anyway, I believe that is why (for me at least) the urge to go all out and experience things like the 'typical' college experience isn't there for Christians as much. I can draw a bit of consensus, cause, fortunately, the guys I'm living with next year feel the same way, which is such a blessing. And because Christians realize there is so much God is wanting to offer us, it makes it a little comforting to know we don't have to conform to the world's standards.
It's kinda cool to think that the reason I don't do these things is cause 'I might get in trouble' but instead, because I don't want these things to get in the way of my Walk and deviate from God's plan. It's a comforting notion, and I wish I had this attitude 24/7 because then I would always have a positive outlook on things, no matter the circumstances.
So hopefully the majority of this made sense, I've been battling a persistent headache for the past 2 days and now its starting to be a bother.
Hmm... now I guess now I can finally take the sticky note down, 'bout time too.
Cheers!
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